Random post, random thought process.. but, I thought I’d share. Its been a few difficult weeks, maybe months, possibly year. You know that saying, “when it rains, it pours?” well, I feel like I’ve been stuck in a tsunami for the past few… (insert amount of time). My mindset when it comes to obstacles, struggles and such, I try and embrace it instead of go against it and sulk. (Try to at least). I try to learn from it, accept it, and of course I’ll continually pray about it. I just always pray for more patience, strength and guidance, peace and of course help. I continue to put faith in God above all, no matter how stuck I am. I know that he is and always will be there for me and in his time will help me. Sometimes I may get bitter about it and stubborn because I’m just tired of my situation that I am in, or sometimes I’ll just force things to happen and not in God’s time. Both are wrong. You should pray and have faith in Christ in all he does, for all the obstacles you go through he walks with you, he never gives you anything you cannot handle. And, sometimes I am blindsided and think otherwise.
So, back to my story, our fridge finally gave up on us after 3 in a half years. It was a used fridge, so I’ve replaced and fixed it about 3-4 times. Finally, we got a technician to come out and look at it and they were so kind and honest to tell me the truth, to better invest my money towards a new fridge instead of trying to fix our current, broken fridge. So, of course being a single income family we budget, and try to save as much as we can. This was not in our plan to have to spend thousands on a fridge! Of course, when this happened- like a domino effect, many other bad things happened, and so on and so forth. I had bottled so much inside that I finally broke-down and cried. I was just tired. Fed-up. Mentally, physically and emotionally – DRAINED! I cried and just let it all out. I then prayed, I prayed the same things I always ask for: patience, guidance, strength, peace, and for help. The following days after I just tried to take everyday slow, and breathe in, breathe out. Accept what I couldn’t change, and work with what I had.
I did just that. I sucked it up when things got tough, I cried when I just hurt too much and I just breathed because thats all you can really do sometimes. Then randomly, I started noticing elephants. I would go on instagram, twitter, or a website and there would be an elephant. I did not really think too much of it, because well – its the internet! It happened again when Kate wore an elephant onesie, and she just would not stop pointing at her onesie. She then saw an image of an elephant on her boppy pillow and continued to point at it. Again, I just thought she wanted me to state what animal it was, and I did. It wasn’t until today, I realized this might be my sign!
I opened the mail that I had received from a friend, I pulled out the card, and read the inside. It wasn’t until I closed the card, and saw the front of card. It was two elephants, trunks up. It finally clicked, elephants! I decided to google the meaning or symbolism of elephant as I know in the asian culture there is a meaning behind it.
“The elephant is generally considered a symbol of good luck and the animal is a symbol of good fortune. Elephants in Asia are symbolizing a kind of divinity and benevolence and that is why in the recent Asia there are still religious ceremonies where offering is made to the elephants, they wash them and anoint them with special oils and pigments so that the community be blessed with good will. They also symbolize wisdom, loyalty, strength, fidelity and longevity.” (animal-symbols).
God shows his signs in mysterious ways, and I believe these past couple of days, I received mine. I’ve also been smelling my Dad’s cologne the past two nights. Usually, when I needed help when I was younger, my Dad was my go-to and he always helped when he could. Now, that he passed I still pray to him and ask him for help.
Always, have hope, and faith that good things come in small packages, or in my cases in elephants. Be patient. God sees your struggles and he hears your prayers.