How My 8 Year Old Made Me Cry

Happy Monday, #GP5Fam! It’s been a crazy start to our week here in the Grr-arrow household! I mean when is it not ever crazy in my household, psh! Who am I kidding! I live with crazies! Haha! (facepalm)

Anyways, with hockey & figure skating in full swing. I barely can keep up with the household chores and sleep– speaking of sleep, I miss doing that. And, it’s usually when everyone is asleep, is when I can bust out the phone (or laptop) and get my thoughts on paper.

So, as a warning. We are gonna get sappy in today’s post. So grab your favorite blanket, get cozy on the couch, and grab some tissues & let’s get heartfelt! On today’s post, ”How My 8 Year Old Made Me Cry.”

Today guys, I was a parenting failure! You’re probably thinking I’m being over the top dramatic. And, I wish I was. My TDL was beyond overwhelming. I had emails to tend too, tasks to complete, calls to make and let’s not even get to my list of household chores that desperately needed to get done. I got up early to do some laundry, only to realize the clothes that were previously in the dryer were still wet. So the kids helped me get the wet clothes separated from the dry clothes and placed back in the drier to get dry.

After that, I started getting the sheets off my bed and started piling clothes for the next load of laundry. Mind you I still have a load in the wash, a load in the dryer. 3 piles outside my bedroom door that STILL needs to be done. Sigh. It just seems neverending. I was also on a time crunch as I still had to get Skyler’s homeschool assignments together. And, log on to work!

Time was not on my side today, even though I woke-up decently early. As loads of laundry were going, I scrambled to make sure everyone was fed- from the dogs, turtle and of course the kids!

Once that was ”somewhat” situated I launched my laptop and started on my emails. Simultaneously, I was working on some schooling issues for the upcoming school year which resulted needing to be done via a phone call. Of course, in perfect timing. Katelynn decided to have her full-blown tantrum, complete with ”exorcist” back arches and laying on the floor. All because I told her she couldn’t have fruit snacks for breakfast. Oh, and I stood my ground while I tended to my important phone call. Honestly, I should’ve just given her the damn fruit snack so I could get through my phone conference.

But, alas, In her best, high shrill, Katelynn sang the song of her people — loud enough for the poor lady I was talking to on the phone to hear. And, she politely said, ”Shes got some lungs on her”. Oh, If she only knew how I tried to muffle the sound on the phone so she couldn’t hear and failed epically to balance the phone off my shoulder & pick up a flailing 4-year-old off the floor. All while struggling to also hold a pen & notebook.

After picking Kate up, she was still whining and whimpering, as she still begged for the fruit snack. I continued to stand my ground and put Kate on the couch and walked away into another room so I can somewhat pay attention to what this lady was saying to me. I think I repeated every other sentence back to the lady, to confirm we were on the same page & in all honesty, just cause nothing was clicking.

I walked back out into the living room and put the phone on mute while the lady kept talking. I quickly tried to multitask and tend to Kate. Which resulted in a bigger meltdown cause she wanted to be held — which I, unfortunately, couldn’t do as I needed both hands as I was taking notes during the phone call.

After I no longer could take the whining, I turned on the TV and Thank heavens for Nick Jr, cause whatever show was on calmed Kate. And, after realizing fruit snacks were out of the question Kate drank her milk & ate cereal. (THANK GOD!)

Mind you through this whole Katelynn ordeal, Skyler was (as always) playing hockey in the living room. So I felt like I was playing dodgeball in the house trying to weave through and not get hit. Telling him to stop seemed impossible, also I don’t think he understood my ”miming” since I was on the phone.

Thankfully, I was able to go through my phone call, multitask on the laptop & go through emails. Still, laundry wasn’t done & homeschool didn’t start. My conference and emails took up a chunk of my time.

Once I was finally off the phone the kids reminded me that we needed to get cupcakes and cookies (something I had promised them last week). I packed all my electronics and earpiece and decided that my work would have to be mobile today.

When we got to the bakery we picked out our cupcakes, cookies and headed back to the car. As I loaded the kids into the car I dropped the box which resulted in all the frosting and cupcakes to turn upside down. Fabulous. I scrambled to save what decency the cupcakes had left and headed home.

I tried my best to hold myself together and figured, “What else could go wrong today?”  when we got home, my Husband was there to greet us. I was ready to cry and go in full-Mom-meltdown. And, then Skyler said something completely surprising.

He began to tell Ric about our day, and, I was just waiting for all the epic Mom fails, I had. But, he literally didn’t mention how stressed or frustrated I was. All he took out of the day was– regardless of how busy I was I took time to make Kate food, and turn on the TV for them, and that I drove them to get cupcakes and cookies. Skyle, looked at all the positives I did today, all my multitasking and was happy they got cupcakes and cookies regardless if it was half smashed.

I teared-up and Ric just looked at me like I was insane. I later went on to explain the day from my point of view. How crazy, chaotic it felt.

My kiddo for sure just served me a slice of reality and a good one at that. Perspective.





4 Reasons Why You Should Come To The “Living Library” Event

Hello, GP5 Family!

I hope you are all having a fabulous Wednesday! In all the hustle and bustle of yesterday’s adventures, I forgot to mention an event that I am participating in, and it’s held in Phoenix, AZ.  And, I would LOVE to invite all of my GP5 Family and Friends to come take part!

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I know, I know — this Kevin Hart meme is totally on point! — Haha, In all honesty, I should’ve mentioned it sooner, but, we were ironing out the kinks for the event. Now, I’ve been mentioning and hinting throughout social media, about my story. And, where many of you have shown interest – well it’s almost time for you to hear it! =D

The Living Library is similar to your traditional library in which a reader will borrow a book for a short period. The only key major difference is that in The Living Library, the books are real people who have agreed to sit down and share their story.

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How awesome is this? There are TONS of amazing books to check-out with inspiring stories to share, including mine! ;]

Here are 5 stellar reasons to come to the event:

  1. There are A LOT of amazing books to check-out! From children of holocaust survivors’ to Women’s March Leaders to former Prisoners or hear the stories of those who were once homeless and how they inspired to change and bring hope to those in that situation, and MUCH more!
  2. The Living Library is a two-day event, so if you can’t make the first event, don’t worry you can come to the next one! ;]
  3. The books will talk about their story for an hour, with plenty of time for questions and answers! So, if you’re curious about mine, you should sign-up!
  4. The event is hosted in Phoenix, AZ at Phoenix College on February 27-28 from 10am – 2 pm

Come learn and listen as…

Phoenix College Social Justice Organization presents

The Living Library

Tuesday, Feb. 27 & Wednesday, Feb. 28

10:00am—2:00pm @ Phoenix College

Sign up at: 


I would love for you to hear my story & would love to meet you!

Dear 20 year old Me,

Dear 20 year-Old Me,

Now, I know it’s been a crazy year – – 2008 wasn’t kind to you, but, lets face the facts you didn’t treat 2008 that great either. Let’s recap shall we? there was a death, a move, an unexpected whirlwind of a romance, new career path, an unexpected pregnancy, another unexpected move out-of-state, and a shot-gun wedding. I bet you would’ve never guessed being a Mom & Wife at 20. I don’t think anyone did. But, hey things happen in the oddest way and the best part is you took responsibility & made that your priority! The even better part is this new journey as a Wife & Mother. Don’t ever look at it as a bad thing. Because really, this was a blessing in disguise. And, this was meant to be! Wasn’t it?

I know it killed you leaving behind your Family the way you did, I know the anxiety you felt was over bearing. But, no one said it was going to be a walk in the park. Especially the way things happened. Just look at it as a learning experience, so you know how to better handle it. I know Motherhood isn’t always easy, and you try your best everyday. Just sometimes, it doesn’t quite pan out like you had hoped. But, the important thing in all this is that you keep trying, you keep pushing and that you are still trying to be positive. The keyword is trying. And, my dear 20-year-old self, trying is all you need to do. Even if it seems hopeless.

Pinky, Your kids are going to think the world of you! Even when you mess-up cooking dinner, or forget to pack a snack. They’re going to think you’re the best Mom in the whole world! Don’t beat yourself up too much when you feel like you can’t juggle 3 kids’ schedules and your sanity. It’s not meant to be easy. There’s days you’re going to feel like the worst parent ever, and that all you do is yell and nag. But, honestly, people think the world of how you raise your kids. Now, you don’t need everyones’ applause or opinions on how you should raise your kids, but, your sleepless nights, and early mornings and constant “nagging” is working. They’ll love you even if you look disheveled and running on two hours of sleep. And, trust me, they’ll never fail to remind you. Enjoy every minute of it, they won’t be little forever.

Just remember, it won’t always be rainbows and butterflies even though you wonder how any Mom/Wife does it and manages to still look completely put together. Don’t ever compare yourself to other Mom’s or Wives, cause truth be told they’re probably wondering how you’re doing it too! Everyone is fighting their own battles so don’t be quick to judge or compare just worry about making a better version of you!

Some important things to take note, stay focused on your studies! I know it’s hard to do so, being up all night with a Baby & than writing a paper the following morning. But, you know what, it has to be done! Your education is important & having a Baby is an even bigger motivation to continue pushing forward. What you’re doing is beneficial not only for you, but your Family as well! Just whatever you do, don’t sweat the small stuff, there are bigger things to worry about then Facebook comments & Twitter posts.

Budget & save, it isn’t fun being an adult nobody said it was going to be exciting, to have bills and paying off debt. Stay on top of it, pay it off & don’t just sign up for EVERY damn card that comes in the mailbox. You’re not a millionaire!

Keep pushing to be a better version of yourself than you were when you were younger. Be someone you know your children would be proud of. Most importantly, never give up on yourself & Don’t beat yourself up! People expect a lot out of you especially now, but, you know what. Take it day by day, and put your best foot forward always. Jump through those obstacles and embrace the journey because I promise it will be worth it!

20-year-old self, don’t forget to take deep breaths and cry. It’s definitely okay to cry. I know it isn’t easy waking up in the morning with a flood of emotions or even going to bed with tears in your eyes & a heavy chest. I know you probably tried your hardest to hold it all back. But, you probably just can’t. Not anymore at least. Cause I’m sure It was a long time coming, I know. But, just breathe. Pray & give it to God, you are strong & will overcome it. Trust me you already have. The hardest part is letting go of the burdens that bother you. You’ve already taken that one step when you gave it to God. Stay hopeful!

Try to enjoy your relationship, Ric is just as frazzled as you are. You may not think he is going through a lot of emotions. But, he is. Give him credit. At times you may despise one another, and other times completely enamored. He is going through his own roller coaster ride & the best thing to do is be open with one another, communicate. Oh, and 20-year-old-self, You won’t look at each other the same anymore. Remember that twinkle in his eyes and how you felt the butterflies in your stomach?  Yeah, that goes away… fix issues as they come-up. Don’t wait. Years of unfixed issues, many responsibilities and stress can really change a person. But, don’t give-up hope. The person you fell in love with is still somewhere in there. Hang-in there!

I’m sure you’re probably wondering, If you would’ve only gotten a glimpse of how life is going to be 8 years later, would you still take that same path? Would you turn back and change the things you could? Look at it this way, don’t sweat the bad things. The best part about life is the journey. The obstacles, the people who come into your life and quickly walk-out. Take all those and learn from them. Everyday is a new day to change things for the better. So, even though you may have had a rough start, your story is still yours. Never forget your worth.

You can do this! Don’t give-up!